Just clean your room...

After that last post, I took a nap. I woke up refreshed and with a new sense of purpose. Went into the living room and chatted with Jackie (as I so often love to do) and we started talking about marriage, the commitment it entailed (she is engaged by the way), and eventually how we wanted to daily surrender to our Lord and die to ourselves. You see, when I envision this, I think about something extreme and radical- to die and abandon myself to Jesus would be a great thing; if I did that every day my life would be so extreme! But I don't. I'll admit it. Many times a day I will live for myself and die to no one.
I started thinking about a marriage, and the reality that the commitment at the alter is, in a sense, to abondon one's self to the service of another. Granted this is often skewed and takes form in many ways... but I'm pretty sure that's the idea of love in a marriage ordained by God. Yeah I'm pretty dang selfish and definately no where close to marriage, but it certainly got me thinking about dying to my Savior day in and day out and what that looked like.
It was almost simple really. I was instantly convicted of areas that, simply put, I never died to. I am lazy, sloppy, frantic, selfish, and undisciplined. Soooo, to ignore conviction would be a terrible thing. I went and cleaned my room thoroughly, attended discussion, cleaned the dishes, am going for a walk, and am taking care of business. This is how I can die to myself today and live under the discipline of God's hand who lovingly calls me His. Sometimes it's the mundane things that serve God and serve others. Besides, I like my desk when it's tidy and so does my roommate.